I keep trying, it is not the easiest way, actually it is the most complicated one, just to keep pushing your luck, or your astrological chart every now and then, whatever you want to call it, it is not the easiest way, but I keep trying. I keep trying cause I dont know any other way, is just a game of seeing what is going to happens, maybe I will get lucky sometime and whwnever I expected there you go, you have it.
It is painful, I have been trying for the past three years, all over again in different circumstances, with different tactis, at different moments. Believe I have tried, I have tried as I guess I never thought I would, in a way I was not expecting and im doing the best I can. Yes, I keep trying cause maybe I still have faith in me, or the others, or both, maybe because deep inside something can change and something can be done, maybe because I am right, or wrong, and I have to prove it to myself.
Oh yes I keep trying, every now and then, when I get the chance, when I feel I have the chance, and I just go for it, unfortunately I guess I have to keep on trying since none of the past attempts have worked out properly. Of course it has its downside, you always doubt about if you should still or not try, and go on, or just forget about and accept it once and for all and move on, and take that step that will change your life forever.
I might, Im in that precise moment in time where I could do it, just like that, nothing to lose, no regrets, nothing behind, nothing ahead, just take that step and everything around will be different, but then again I will continue to try for sure if I feel I have to. Still it is a good choice, but decisions have to be made quickly, this moment in time is just a little door that opens for a brief period and you have to go in or close it and wait for the next one, but you never know, sometimes it can take less time or more, usually you have to wait a lot which means that maybe you are just missing that chance, and there are not going to be many more coming ahead.
Now that again because I tried I find myself in the same, or worse, place than I was before it might be my last chance, I really wished that this last effort would work, but I guess it didn't, I was deceived again by words and actions, by despair and my own naiveness, which again is the most strong weapon against myself and maybe I just wont learn.
I keep trying, I still have faith in me, sort of, I guess I still have faith in others, in words, in looks, in life and in destiny, or I just dont believe any of it anymore and then im just trying because it is my will. I just keep trying cause there is no other thing to do, I still think if I keep going my odds are getting better and then someday I will finally have to stop. I might just stop now, im tired, I dont want to do it anymore...................
It is painful, I have been trying for the past three years, all over again in different circumstances, with different tactis, at different moments. Believe I have tried, I have tried as I guess I never thought I would, in a way I was not expecting and im doing the best I can. Yes, I keep trying cause maybe I still have faith in me, or the others, or both, maybe because deep inside something can change and something can be done, maybe because I am right, or wrong, and I have to prove it to myself.
Oh yes I keep trying, every now and then, when I get the chance, when I feel I have the chance, and I just go for it, unfortunately I guess I have to keep on trying since none of the past attempts have worked out properly. Of course it has its downside, you always doubt about if you should still or not try, and go on, or just forget about and accept it once and for all and move on, and take that step that will change your life forever.
I might, Im in that precise moment in time where I could do it, just like that, nothing to lose, no regrets, nothing behind, nothing ahead, just take that step and everything around will be different, but then again I will continue to try for sure if I feel I have to. Still it is a good choice, but decisions have to be made quickly, this moment in time is just a little door that opens for a brief period and you have to go in or close it and wait for the next one, but you never know, sometimes it can take less time or more, usually you have to wait a lot which means that maybe you are just missing that chance, and there are not going to be many more coming ahead.
Now that again because I tried I find myself in the same, or worse, place than I was before it might be my last chance, I really wished that this last effort would work, but I guess it didn't, I was deceived again by words and actions, by despair and my own naiveness, which again is the most strong weapon against myself and maybe I just wont learn.
I keep trying, I still have faith in me, sort of, I guess I still have faith in others, in words, in looks, in life and in destiny, or I just dont believe any of it anymore and then im just trying because it is my will. I just keep trying cause there is no other thing to do, I still think if I keep going my odds are getting better and then someday I will finally have to stop. I might just stop now, im tired, I dont want to do it anymore...................
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