14/12/09

Sigh

Every now and then a sigh just pops out. You know when you have that feeling of relief, stress, or just that random thought about the things in life that are just happening in the blink of an eye all over the world. Those things that you are missing in that precise moment of time, those thing that have just slipped thru your fingers and they are waiting, somewhere to be embraced again in joy. Sighs come in many different ways, but they all carry the same emotion you can not really express, they speak for themselves, they just dont say anything but tell everything you want someone to understand.

Sighs are just that part of you that you really free, you just let them go away and travel thru air, coming and going to someone else's ears, or eyes, just wandering around, alone in the world, just like you are, sitting there expecting for something or just being tired of something and wanting to go out, or leave, but you just can't do it. In the end a sigh is all you can transmit, is a sense of being powerless, being just unarmed and with nothing to expect, or with all your life passing right thru your eyes but you simply can't do nothing to grab it for a second and smile and let it go away.

The world is such a big place, that in the end is just to small for all the sighs out there. Everywhere at the same time you thought about that special something, someone else did and so the cicle begins, and there is a massive choir of hope, fear, despair, loneliness or just desires that come to live and die in a few seconds and they are just out there, all the souls of all the people in the world are just out there wandering around, lost, looking to come back to the soul where they came from. And they found each other, they crash in the air and they begin to mingle and they begin to create our hopes and fears and desires and frsutrations all in one big pile of just random air, from random people that wish and hope for the same.

But no one really cares about this particular place in time, is just a second, even less, but you feel like you have exorcised everything you had, good or bad into the world, but everyone around you just don't feel it, don't get it, as a matter of fact no one does, not even you really know. You just have this random weird feeling inside you that has to come out, is like taking of our excess baggage an just continue on with life. Sighs transmit what we feel, but also says what we can not do to change things and how comfortable we are with everything and just take another deep breath and continue walking. In that particular moment of your life, which just takes milliseconds, everything makes sense, so nothing makes sense, and you just realised that, but you have to continue walking and in the next step you are going to forget that revelation you had just a moment ago.

Thats the way life works for some people, every little sigh counts, they go in the air and die within some time, forgetting about who you are, who they are, and just leaving the world they were born in the blink of an eye. Some people collect them trough their life, and just as they get them they set them free. Some peoples life are based only on those desires, wishes, hopes, sadness, loneliness and anger that this world is made of and they just let those feelings free in one second, and just like that everything goes back to normal and we can carry on, but soon, sometimes very soon, we need to exhale again that quiet cry of despair, of joy, of existance again, so we feel, for just a little space in time that we are alive, that we have been alive for some time and that we are satying alive in our next step forward, and then it all makes sense, and when we move forward, just like that in the blink of an eye nothing makes sense anymore.

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